There are days when I want nothing more than to get a "real" job! Sometimes it's because I feel neither appreciated nor respected by my three young employers. Other days I feel the pull toward outside employment when I can't do the math problems on my 3rd grader's homework. Those are the days when I wonder if my brain has turned to mush slowly over the last 9 years, or if it happened all at once and I just didn't notice. There are the days when I just really want to put my social work skills to work to help people. I know that pouring my time and energy into raising loving, caring, good citizens is important, but there are many times when it feels like I'm doing nothing to contribute to the well-being of society. And, lastly, there are times when I just LONG for lunch in the teacher's lounge (I was a school social worker) with my colleagues. Really. I never really realized how precious those 20 minutes of sitting around, chewing every bite, and having uninterrupted conversations really was!! Sometimes that's the only reason I want to work outside my house!
This is the beginning of my journey of blogging through the angst I feel in these days and nights of loving and appreciating the fact that I am a stay at home mom, while also struggling with the lack of mental stimulation and adult interaction.